I found this on a blog out there. it made me think! (again :-)

When I first became a youth pastor, I felt unworthy to serve God in this capacity. 
When I first became a pastor, I felt unworthy.  When I was commissioned with the IMB, I felt unworthy.  Why?

Well, in truth, I was, and am, unworthy.  In fact, not only am I unworthy to serve God, but I am unworthy to even know God because of my sin.  But, praise be to God, through the finished work of Christ, He has made me worthy.  Through Jesus, I have been adopted into the family of God!
Though I know I am redeemed and God loves me, I also am more keenly aware than ever of my own personal weakness.  Moving to Peru (Manila) has revealed to me a host of things about myself that I honestly didn’t know.  In honesty, I am learning that I’m not nearly as good as I thought I was.

Who I am… Who I want to be
I am impatient with my kids… I want to be patient with them.  (Gal 5:22-23)
I am a man who relies on “things” for satisfaction… I want to be a man who relies on God. (Psalm 20:7)
I am selfish… I want to be selfless. (Matt 16:24)
I am a man who defends his wrongdoings… I want to be a man who admits his mistakes.  (Psalm 32:5)
I am concerned with earthly praise and rewards… I want to be concerned only with heavenly praise and rewards.  (Matt 6:19-20)
I am a man with a mediocre prayer life… I want to be a man with a dynamic prayer life. (James 5:16)
I am a man who gives some… I want to be a man who gives all.  (Luke 9:23)
I am a football fan… I want to be a fútbol fan. (1 Cor 9:22)
I am a man who loves his wife… I want to be a man who loves her as Christ loves the Church (Eph 5:25)
I am a man who reads God’s Word… I want to be a man who lives God’s Word. (Mark 10:17-21)
I am a missionary… I want to be an ambassador for Christ everywhere I go. (Eph 6:19-20)
I am overindulgent… I want to be self-sacrificing. (Matt 16:24)

This isn’t some kind of exhaustive list of the things God is dealing with me about.  But I can tell you this, I desire more today than ever to be the kind of man that HE wants me to be.

So what about you?  Who are you and who do you want to be?  Feel free to post a comment and let me know.